Thursday, February 23, 2012

Dear February....you are a pain in my ass.....Love Lisa



Three years ago this time a year my world turned upside down. Early February 2009 was when I found out I had stage II melanoma, almost exact to the date in February 2010 is when the cancer came back to play and went to stage IV and February 2011 was hell emotionally. So here I am in 2012, with the month of February still being torturous. However its different this year, bittersweet torture....if that makes sense. I have been using "black" since December 22nd and little by little pieces of tumor have been expelled from my body. In the beginning the pain was tolerable as the "black" was dealing with the surface cancer. I didnt even require any pain medication, not even over the counter. Then about a month ago I applied "black" as I normally do and holy sh*t!!!!! My poor mother...I was literally jumping on the couch, pulling my hair out and screaming like a psychiatric patient. Thats when I knew I, or I guess I should say "black" was at a whole new level. Literally, the black was way beyond the first couple of layers of my skin and burning into tissue that was much deeper. The tumor was fairly large, and part of it was surface and parts of it were under healthy skin closer to my lymph nodes. So the burning through healthy skin was what brought on the INTENSE pain. I have a high tolerance for pain but this was unbearable and with several pep talks from my parents and mike I decided not to throw in the towel and keep up my crazy ass decision to stick with "black." However if I was going to continue I had to deal with all my negative beliefs about pain killers and how they ruin your body and suck it up and take them. So I changed my mindset and embraced the mood-swing, messes with your digestion, high as a kite feeling, and horrible nausea pharmaceutical drug percocet. My priority right now is getting this god damn dead tumor out of my body and if thats what Im going to do I have to take something to ease the pain.

Not like the pain was bad enough, I decided, with the advice from my doc from Australia (specializes in "Black"), due to the tumor being "stuck" to place more black on the open and raw skin that black was just put on the previous day. Aahhhh!! That was no joke....there was a point that two percocets did not ease the pain. Lots of self talk and visualization of this bastard coming out once and for all got me through it. So at this point, there is a lot going on under my arm. The perimeter of the tumor has severed from the healthy skin and seems as though it is ready to be expelled from by body. Which is awesome however scary at the same time. Like I said earlier, it is very large so the wound is going to be large...basically a gaping hole in my armpit. Pretty dangerous and I guess painful so I will require wound care that I dont have set up yet. I have a dr appointment soon to hopefully set that up. These dr's are funny though, they dont want to offer you care if you are doing insane crazy things such as putting black salve on very large tumors.

I think black is an incredible way to go, however I think it is more appropriate for people that have much smaller and manageable skin cancers or tumors. Because as I said earlier, the beginning was fine when the black was targeting the cancer that was close to the skins surface. I have no regrets as I believe everything happens for a reason but on the same hand I would not feel comfortable encouraging another person to use black on such a large tumor. As far as a small skin cancer, such as a mole or something, I would in a heartbeat.

Im still curious as to whats going to happen. Will it require more black? Will it ALL come out? How is the open wound going to heal? How bad will the scar be? How is this tumor actually going to fall out? Will it be a clean cut or something I will have to manipulate? I have been documenting the black experience but considering how gruesome it is, I am not posting them on my blog as of yet. I think it is worthwhile posting eventually as its fascinating, however I will do this all at once in one blog and will warn people in the title..."Warning .....gruesome photos"

Other than black, I have a lot going on....as usual. I continue to work full time, go for my weekly vitamin drips, living a healthy life,  doing my daily health regimen, and Im going to school to be a certified health coach. I LOVE it!!! Not only will I get to help others reach optimum health but I learn others way I could help myself. I have been practicing health histories, so if anyone is interested in being one of my guinea pigs let me know!!! I would love any help I could get.


Oh my god!!!! Mid editing my post I took a dinner break and ran out with mike and I come home to find one of the large three tumor eschars hanging off!! It came right off!!!! A HUGE chunk of my cancer is gone!!! I can't even f*ck'n believe it... Black actually worked! Im on Cloud nine right now :) going to call my Australian doc now and talk it through!!!


thanks for all those positive vibes and prayers!!


xoxo


Lisa



30 comments:

Allison said...

Lisa that is absolutely wonderful news!!!! (not the pain part--you know what I mean!). Keep up the great work, you truly are an inspiration!

Kim said...

Dear Lisa,

Your amazing and I think you will make a great life coach as if you haven't been coaching already. I think alot of people have read your blogs and said my god I have nothing to complain about.
Love you!!
Kim

Kate said...

Oh my goodness, that is crazy! Very happy for you and I hope this is great news for your prognosis. You are one brave girl.

Amber said...

WOOHOOOO! Lisa, we are SO HAPPY for you. And we hope the rest of it comes out quickly.

Your courage, discipline and positive attitude will be a true inspiration to those you serve as a health coach to. They'll be so lucky. I speak from experience. :-)

Peace and positive vibes,
Amber O.

PS..I'm happy to participate in your health history homework if you are still looking for peeps.

Jane Andrews said...

Dear Lisa
I know "Black" has always been your favorite color. lol So glad and excited that you're seeing progress with it. Stay strong.
Love
Jane

amanda said...

Keep up the amazing work Li. Love you.

LiSa said...

Thanks Allison!! Means a lot!!! It's pretty crazy that it's working!!

Yvette said...

sounds so painful but definitely getting results so hang in there ! Easy for me to say..lol...love ya !

StayLovely said...

you amaze me everyday Li!!!!!!
i love u soulja girl!!!

Donna said...

I LOVE the ending of that post!! YAYYYY!!! Heart you! You are hanging in there and your success is coming :)

LiSa said...

Thanks Kim!! Everyone has their stressors in life, mine are really no different than anyone else's. Bottom line is we all have to keep truckin and remember that eventually it will pass.

LiSa said...

Well thanks Kate!! This is huge news for my prognosis!! So exciting, a little more left and cancer free is an arm reach away. xoxo thanks for your support!!!

LiSa said...

Soulja girl I am!! I couldn't have done it without your support along the way!! You kept the journey interesting... That's for sure!!! Love you!! Hopefully soon we will have a remission party to plan ;)

LiSa said...

Thanks Amanda my love!!! Appreciate your ongoing support!! xxxx :)

Anonymous said...

Hi Lisa,

Don't give up and try everything possible to fight this. I read about this guy on Facebook Andrew Weil, even tough he is a doctor is amazing what he is advising people around him. Check him out.Good luck with everything.
Michelle

Anonymous said...

LiSa;
so happy you are getting results. I found your site when looking for help for my husband. He got the bad news only a month ago. Started Cellect-Budwig and I ordered black salve. He has leukemia and 6cm tumor in the lung but we did not go for biopsy. Wandering if there is a doctor who can guide us with black salve application. I would love to hear from you. Go girl!
Veska

LiSa said...

Hi veska,

I'm sorry to hear about your husbands diagnosis. There is sooooo much he can do to overcome the cancer. Glad to hear you have him on cellect budwig. Does this mean you ordered cellect? That is a must!! Cellect is reversing peoples cancers left and right!! As far as black salve, I have heard that it works on internal
Tumors... I just don't know how. I have a contact person that could help you along the process with black. Email me at lmato17@gmail.com. Talk to you soon!!

Strength and healing thoughts,

Lisa

LiSa said...

Amber!!! Thanks for your positive and sweet words!! You are the best! I'm happy that I could be an inspiration to others but most of all im happy to help people realize that there is another way and people don't have to succumb to conventional treatments. I can't wait to be a health coach!! I miss you guys so much and am
so estatic that you had a clean scan. Hopefully you will visit ny soon!

xoxo

Lisa

LiSa said...

MIchele,

Thank you... Yes Andrew Weill is incredible and has a wealth of information. I read most of his books. As for giving up... That's never an option. I'm the type that will for sure try everything and anything to get to remission. Hence having black salve on for months eating away at this dead cancer!! Thank you!!

Lisa

LiSa said...

Yvette!! No worries... I'm hanging in there! I'm a fighter at heart so as rough as the pain is I will get through it. Hope all is well with you. Thanks for the ongoing support!

Lisa

LiSa said...

Jane,

Yes you're right my favorite color has always been black!!! What a coincidence... But to he honest I'm starting to hate the gosh darn color!! I had enough of it ready to move on to the lively brIght colors. Thanks for your support!!


Lisa

Anonymous said...

Wow you are very brave and I admire you so much! Just please get the black wound checked out, as you said, it may not work so well on deeper tumors. Hang in there and take care!!! West HArtford reader

Anonymous said...

I come to your blog often...I too had melanoma and had e-mailed you once about what went down when yours came back. I get my checks every 6 months and keep a close eye on everything, but am so glad to see that if something ever came back that there would be other options and options with positive results. I am so glad to hear that it's going away and that this will soon pass so you can live your life for other things then fighting daily for your health...not that it will ever go away completely...kind of shaped who you are and where you're going with life...but keep on keepin on and I'll be happy to read your cancer-free post sooner than later!

Katie said...

I am so naive. What is the "black" that you are referring to?

Anonymous said...

Hi Lisa! My name is Courtney and my mom works with your husband at nrot! Shes told me about your amazing story, but I began reading your blog a few weeks ago and it knocked my socks off! I'm so happy to hear you're doing well. What you've been through is incredible, and so inspirational how you've kept such an open and positive attitude throughout. You've sparked such an interest in me in the wholistic and naturopathic avenue of medicine, i can't stop reading about it all! thank you for sharing your story with the world and for teaching us what you've learned along the way! keep up the positive vibes, much love and healing thoughts!

Courtney

Kelly said...

Hi Lisa,
Thank you for sharing your story. Informative and inspirational...Debbie's daughter is not just beautiful on the outside..she's beautiful on the inside where it counts. I remember meeting you when we moved in across the street. Such a sweet, bubbly teenager...you warned me of the dangers of our local high school. lol It's crazy how we can live so close to our neighbors and still be totally oblivious to the life altering changes they're going through. My son and sister have had melanoma. Matthew was in high school when he went to the doctor for acne. The dermatologist removed two small moles off his back and said that he didn't think they looked suspicious. It was just cosmetic. We were very surprised when he was referred to an Oncologist. Having to go down to the muscle left him with a very long, wide and sometimes painful scar on his back. He would make jokes at the beach about being in a knife fight...I'm sure you can relate to that. I guess my family is considered high risk. Brian and I have had basal cell lesions removed and we have a family history of melanoma. You know how many redheads we have over here. We even had a red haired dog. lol But I was always so careful with everyone...even with spending year after year in Puerto Rico at my Mom's house..no one ever got a sunburn! I guess my point is...everyone has to be aware of skin cancer. Not just the high risk group. Your blog is important. Not just for awareness, but for letting people know about alternative therapies. Again, thank you for being so unselfish and sharing your story. Please know that our prayers, positive thoughts and love are with you and your family as you go on this journey.
Kelly McKeon

Kate said...

Just thinking of you and hoping and praying you are ok and feeling well. Much love and many prayers are being sent your way. I check back often for updates and haven't seen one in a couple months so just hoping no news is good news.

LiSa said...

Hi kate,

Thanks for checking :) all is going well. I just have been super busy with everyday life! I will update my blog soon! Thanks for your support!

Lisa

baez said...

Hi!

I love your blog and your strength and boldness! I was referred to the blog through researching Cellect. My dad was diagnosed with stage IV skin melanoma six years ago. This week they found it in his brain and lungs. I have the sweetest mom who has your strength and boldness. Do you have any input on Cellect, diet, etc? They are also following Crazy, Sexy Diet!

Sending love and peace your way!

Meshelle

LiSa said...

Hi Meshelle,

Thank you so much for your kind words. I really believe that 80% of the cancer battle is the mind and the power of positive thinking. I'm sorry to hear about your dad ... I have many suggestions.. First off I think he should start taking cellect ASAP. A clean whole food diet is also critical. Please email me at lmato17@gmail.com with any questions you may have. Sorry it took me awhile to respOnd... I was on vacation.

Peace and strength to you and your family.

:) smiles,

Lisa